Two Words+A whole Lot More

Viral Meningitis. Ugh. Just let me tell you how painful it is. I would never wish this pain on anyone. It has been horrible. I am at home resting and my headache is some better so I decided to blog a little. When I was wallowing in my misery last night at my worst pain, I was so scared. I thought I was going to die. The pain meds made me have crazy thoughts. ;)

This morning, I was lying in bed mad that I have to pay all these medical bills (we don't have insurance). I was mad that I was at home with the kids and noone to help me. I was annoyed that my husband had to leave me straight from the hospital to go back to Nashville. As I was feeling sorry for myself, God spoke to me. I am SO blessed. I have three beautiful children. There are so many women out there who want babies and I have been so blessed. I have a husband who was willing to spend the night at the hospital with me and get no sleep and still drive back to Nashville. I have a husband that adores me and would die for me. My kids have a Daddy that works harder than most to provide a very comfortable life for them. My parents are healthy. I still have my grandparents. I want for nothing. (except to lose a little weight :) I have kids who while they are messy and don't have the best listening skills, love their mama. And they told me I was pretty today even though my hair hasn't been washed in 2 days.

God provides for our needs all the time, but sometimes we don’t appreciate all that he does for us. Just read Psalm 65. It defines it all so clearly. Something led me to go read it today.
"But my God shall supply all your need according to his
riches in glory by Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:19

Sometimes it is so easy to wallow in our misery that we can't be thankful for what we have. And He gave it all. Lately, I have been so caught up in being sick, and stressed out that I haven't told Him thank you. We should have thankful hearts.

My kids, as much as I love them have stressed me out alot lately in the last few months. It's so hard to take care of three kids on your own during the week. It's hard to not be able to go where I need to go because of the kids. It's hard because I see my husband leave every weekend and know that it breaks his heart to spend the week away from his kids. I see my little boy crying...Daddy, when are you coming back? I feel sorry for myself sometimes for having a child on the autism spectrum. I feel like noone understands. Sometimes when people stare at Wal-Mart when I am telling him not to do something or he runs off, I want to tell them to mind their own business. As I poured all this out to Scotty earlier, he reminded me that so many other parents have it way worse than we do. Our son is healthy, handsome, incredibly smart. So what if he is a little different?

I am going to make an effort to be more thankful. I needed a wake up call.

Are you being challenged beyond your ability to endure? Don’t believe that you can do it alone! You can’t! Jesus said, “apart from me you can do nothing!” Did you get that point? Nothing! Don’t try anything today without relying on the power of God! He knows your weak, but He is available to help, if you will call upon Him! When we are at our weakest, He is strong!

This is what I am most thankful for:

My Hog Crazy family!!!!
Hope everyone had a fabulous Monday!


Allison said...

Sorry to hear you've been so sick! (HUGS)

Tiffany said...

This was such a sweet, heart-felt post. What a great reminder to me to be thankful. Feel well soon and be blessed!

Courtney said...

Bless your heart!! and I am glad you are feeling thankful. We all have alot to be thankful for that we generally take for granted. ***BIG BIG BIG HUG*** :)

"We can cry with hope, we can grieve with hope, because we believe with hope.."