12.08.2009

God is good. He is SO SO good.

Scotty is still in ICU. We are still uncertain of our future. But I know one thing for certain. God is faithful, and we are to cast all our fears and He will sustain us.

We recieved a huge blessing from Scotty's coworkers at State Farm in Tennessee. They sent us an envelope full of cash and a WalMart gift card. It is hard for me to accept the fact that I am facing an uncertain future and needed that, but I appreciated it more than they will ever know.

We have decided to let our new house go. We know that Scotty will probably have to be on disability for awhile and we cannot afford that huge mortgage, so we are going to rent a house. I cannot sit and dwell on the fact that we may be losing everything we worked so hard for, because I know that as long as we are together, nothing else matters. I may have lost sight of this somewhere along the way. It doesn't matter where you live, you are what makes your house a home. I am proud of my husband for working so hard to support us and provide a nice lifestyle for us, but I would rather have an unemployed ALIVE husband. And we took a risk living the self employed lifestyle.

Last night, Caden was in the backseat sobbing. He was trying to hide his face and when I asked him what was the matter he said he didn't want his Daddy to die. I think he is the only one who really gets that Daddys is sick. It broke my heart. I pulled over and got out and got in the backseat with him.

Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers. I appreciate it more than you will ever know.



4 comments:

Tiffany said...

Yes, still praying! God is good and faithful. Praying you continue to feel that.

Allison said...

you are right. People are truly the only thing that really matters. I hope you get out of there soon!

blessedmomto8 said...

Ashley,

Glad you made a decision on the house. Bet that was a HUGE RELIEF! God will use you and Scotty's trials to witness to others!
God Bless!

Jen

I-Karen said...

Ashley,
Don't lose hope! God is great. I know right now there is things you are worrying about (bills, food...) God will provide and He has a plan. God is going to make something good out of this if you allow him to. You , Scotty and the kids are still in my prayers. Tell Scotty that I said hi and love him!

Love ,
Karen

"We can cry with hope, we can grieve with hope, because we believe with hope.."