I quit blogging for awhile, because frankly, I felt like I was using my blog as too much of a personal outlet and felt like I didn't have much of anything positive to say. But although I have been through alot lately, it could be much, MUCH worse. I am so thankful for so many things.

I am thankful that for right now, I have a nice home. I have three beautiful kids who love me. I have a husband who adores me. My husband is still fighting to get healthy for us. I have all my needs met. I have healthy parents who love me. I have grandparents I adore. I have so much to be thankful for. Most of all, I have a God who loves me no matter what. He is here for me always. He is always there to help me back up when I fall.

Since I have been in the hospital with Scotty, I have been doing a bible study on joy. Noone has more potential for happiness than a Christian, and noone is more miserable than those who do not know him. I know that whatever God does in our lives, it is for our benefit. God never leads us into disaster. He acts in our best interests and leads us on the path of righteousness. The world promises a false sense of joy, but only Jesus can offer joy unspeakable and full of glory, the joy that passes our understanding and allows us to function no matter what our circumstances. :-) God puts us through trials for a reason. I know that this experience has brought me closer to Him, and closer to Scotty.

We may ???? get out of here on Saturday. I have laundry stacked up in piles and have not yet even put up all the clothes from my drawers that were thrown out during our burglary. My kids homework hasn't been done in awhile, their backpacks are ridiculously overflowing, and I am actually looking forward to cleaning my house. I miss cooking for my kids. I miss my kids in my class. I miss going to work. (Crazy, I know!)

Before Scotty got sick we decided to sponsor a family for Christmas. We felt we were so blessed that we wanted to give to others who didn't have as much. Scotty woke up from being on the ventilator worried about money and bills. (It was the drugs..haha) But he asked me if I had bought the gifts for this family yet, which I hadn't and he wanted to make sure that I didn't forget. I love his giving heart. His income has now stopped and mine is nothing really, but we are still blessed. We have more than others and our kids have so much. I know that God will provide for us in this time.

Please keep praying for Scotty's recovery. I am sitting in his room waiting on the results of today's CT scan to see how clear his lungs are.


Nic said...

Goodness you guys have it tough. Glad Scotty is going better. Sorry about your house too. Thats awful!! Will be thinking about you guys.

Tiffany said...

Will be praying for you. This was a really sweet post. Thank you for sharing.

"We can cry with hope, we can grieve with hope, because we believe with hope.."