11.05.2010

Friday morning


It is Friday morning, and i'm still being induced. My cervix is being uncooperative. I'm a wash of emotions. I don't know how to feel. I really didn't think this would happen. This is a horrible feeling I wouldn't wish upon anyone. I really thought "surely God won't take another one from me"...although I knew the truth all too well. I know people it has happened to and my heart breaks for them. I was feeling guilty that my baby was healthy. I don't know why He chose my baby to be an angel, but it's out of my control. I think they have figured out what is causing all of my placenta problems and I'll update more on that later.
The induction process has been horrid. Dose after dose of cytotec failed so know I have a foley bulb in my cervix. I'm blogging all these details bc truthfully, I never want to forget.
My baby is very loved and we wanted him/her very much. Hopefully soon I can find out what my precious baby is. The legs were shut on the ultrasound.
I'm scared and very nervous to see and hold my baby. I'm tired of being in this uncomfortable bed. I want a shower. I hadn't eaten in days so my dr finally agreed to let me eat at around 5 this morning. I had a turkey sandwich and chips. I doubt I'll be hungry after all of this.
Our local funeral home will be picking up the baby and we haven't decided exactly what we are going to do as far as plans for the baby.
I appreciate all of your prayers very much. Please pray that this process speeds up because i'm completely miserable.
Last night they gave me a clear liquid diet and I couldn't handle it. I did try the jello and broth but yuck.




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Ashley Jo Anglin

4 comments:

blessedmomto8 said...

Hugs and Prayers Ash..

Melody said...

Ashley, I have really been praying for peace for you and Scotty. I hope he is able to be there with you. I'm so sorry this has happened! MUCH LOVE!

Jordan and Jade said...

Ashley,
This is the first time I have seen your blog, and I want you to know that I am most definitely praying for you and your family.

Your friend,

The Mama said...

I am praying so hard for you and your family as you are going through this. I am late commenting and I am so sorry for that, but you are in my prayers often. I am so sorry for your loss. I pray that God will comfort you and when you feel too weak to stand, you will allow Him to hold you up. Hugs!

"We can cry with hope, we can grieve with hope, because we believe with hope.."