9.08.2009

Brokenhearted.

I may not be back for a couple of days. Can you guys please pray for me?
I just returned home from the hospital and I have lost the baby.
I have felt like something was wrong this whole pregnancy and even though I saw the baby last week and it was growing, I KNEW in my heart it wasn't right. Sometimes I think we have these intuitions. I even called the Dr. this weekend and they reassured me the "contraction like pain" was probably ligament pain or stretching. I felt like I was in labor. (I should know.) The bleeding kept getting worse, and I was supposed to accept that was normal too. I knew this wasn't. By the time I got to the hospital, my cervix was open and the baby was gone. (I already knew.) Please just pray for me, I need some time to heal. I was very excited about this baby (I mean ecstatic) and I was begininning to accept some reassurance from the Dr. about all my insecurities. I feel very numb right now and very exhausted.

4 comments:

Nic said...

I'm so sorry. I have already said a prayer for you!

Heather said...

I'm so sorry, Ashley. I am praying for you.

Brittney said...

I'm so sorry! You're in my prayers!!!

Mrs. Bismarck said...

oh sweetie, in my best point of grace voice "god is in control." i know is sucks, and nothing anyone can say will make it better, but my house is praying for you (even evan). if you need anything let me know. :)

a

"We can cry with hope, we can grieve with hope, because we believe with hope.."