I decided Laiken was well enough to go back o school today. She has been out since last Thurs. Poor kid just gets so sick so easily due to her immune system. I think last winter, she missed almost the whole month of February at school. Camden also got the flu, but is now fever free and feeling better. He stayed home today just in case. I pray so hard that noone else in this family gets the flu.

Laiken is the sweetest little girl. She knows that I am sad, and she tries to make me feel better. She offers to rub my feet and brush my hair. I take her up on the hair brushing. Nothing better than having someone play with your hair. :-) I love having a little girl. Right now, she is the only princess and her Daddy and I love her very much.

I am still very sad, but I am feeling some better and I am accepting that this was God's will. My kids are also very confused. We have told them Jesus has our baby and is holding it for us. I figured that was the best explanation I have.

I want to thank all of you who have emailed me and sent me messages through Facebook. I truly appreciate each kind word you have said to me. It means so much. I am so blessed to have an amazing family who loves me and that helps so much.

I do plan on trying again to have a fourth child. I am praying about it, and know that God is in control of that. I got pregnant right after the IUD was removed, and I had several pelvic infections while it was in place and never had a cycle the whole time it was in. My body is confused and needed to heal. I also chose to forgo having a D&C and complete all this in a natural way, which has been painful and emotional. I go back in two weeks to recheck my hormone levels. Once the HCG levels are zero, I am "back to normal." If they don't reach zero, I may have to have a D&C and I would really like to avoid that. Please pray I don't have to.

Camden and I plan on snuggling up today on the couch and watching cartoons. Doesn't get much better than that!


Heather said...

I am praying that you continue to heal-emotionally and physically. I know God is going to bless you!

Nancy said...

You look so pretty in this picture!

"We can cry with hope, we can grieve with hope, because we believe with hope.."