8.11.2011

prayers please..

Today, I feel an ache so deep in my heart...

My friend Jennifer (a real life friend) and I lost our babies at around the same time and gestation last year. When I found out she was pregnant again, I was thrilled for her but still a little sad for myself (honestly). I was so happy for her, she has two girls and found out this baby was a boy.

I'm letting the cat out of the bag. I hadn't planned on telling anyone my news for awhile. I'm pregnant. I am so over the moon, but so very nervous. This baby is already sooo loved.

This morning, Jennifer texted me. Her baby died, I believe she is 19 or 20 weeks. It just is gutwrenching to go through it once, now twice. My heart hurts for her. I don't understand. Unless you have gone through this, you can't understand.
I'm writing this to please ask you to pray for her family, and to pray for me and my baby.

I hadn't planned on telling anyone for awhile longer, I go to the high risk clinic on Monday. I'm already so fearful after losing two babies. I want to have a happy, healthy, living baby in my arms. I prayed that for my friend, too.

So I don't think it matters how long I wait to tell people, I can't change the outcome. Nine short months ago, my heart went to heaven and I'm just really not the same.

I have family and friends who read this, and people I don't know. Im asking you, if you read this to please pray for my baby and for my peace. And please pray for my sweet friend.
Thank you.:)

Psalm 139:13 "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mothers womb."
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18 comments:

Sally said...

Congratulations on your pregnancy! I am so glad you decided to go ahead and share this, because I believe that the more people who know, the more prayers you will have covering you and your sweet baby. I am so very sorry for your friend and her loss. I don't know what it's like to lose a baby, and I can't imagine the pain that it bears. I will be praying for you both. Blessings and peace...

Hillary said...

How horrible! I will of course be praying for your friend! I can't imagine going through two such late baby losses.

Congrats to you! I'm just shocked! :) Prayers for you too that this pregnancy ends with a happy healthy little one!

lots of love! xoxox

His Doorkeeper said...

Remembering your friend in prayer and praying for you as you anticipate the arrival of a new family member!
May God bless you with a healthy baby! Congratulations!

Mrs. Monty said...

congratulations on your pregnancy! I will most definitely be praying you and your friend! I wish no one had to feel the pain of losing a baby!!

Emily said...

Every time I hear about a loss it breaks my heart. My thoughts and prayers are with your friend.

Congratulations on your expected little one!! I'm so glad you shared. We'll be praying for a healthy new member to the "A" Team! :-)

Melody said...

That is so horrible! I am so sorry. I have been praying almost every night for you and your baby. I can't imagine that.

The Mama said...

Praying for you Ashley. Also praying for Jennifer and her family, I cannot even imagine.

I am so excited for your news, and will be praying for a perfectly healthy baby and GREAT news at the dr on Monday. You can bet I will be on the computer all day long waiting for news on Monday!!!!! Praying for you girl!!!

Summer said...

i'm crying as i type this! miscarriage is terrible and it is undescribable unless you have been thru it! My heart just aches for your friend. Wow 2nd trimester miscarriages are rough omg ive been there and i know you have and i am sooo sooo sorry we have had to endure it and i am sending so many extra prayers up for your sweet friend today! My heart has been real heavy for my friend who was a bloggy friend that turned IRL friend Katie lossed Reese 2 years ago today and i have been quite emotional over it!

I am so excited that you are preggers and i know what you and me have talked about so i know you have worries but girl cast your worries unto the lord and try not to worry your pretty little head, i know its hard and easier said than done but stress is not good at all...so try not to sweet pea...hey email me and we will talk. Maybe ease your mind a bit or at least get it all out! Congrats my sweet friend...over the moon excited for you...how many weeks?

I love your new bloggy look
xoxo
Sums

Jay and Kristen said...

First, congratulations! That is exciting and I'm sure scary all at the same time. I can't even pretend to know. I will pray for your friend. I will of course be praying for you to have peace with this pregnancy and be praying for your pregnancy and baby in general.

Ashley E. said...

Congratulations!!!!! So exciting. Praying for your friend, that is devastating.

Melani said...

Congratulations!!! So happy for you! So sad for your friend though. As you already know, I have been where she is. My heart goes out to her. Prayers for your sweet baby, and for her.

FrouFrouBritches said...

Ashley, I am so happy for you and will pray for you and the baby. I'm so excited!

I will also pray for your sweet friend. I cannot imagine her pain, but I know God can make it better.

Praying for you both. Congratulations!

Nicole said...

First of all, a big huge CONGRATULATIONS to you! I am simply so excited for you!

Secondly, my heart is breaking for your friend. It does just seem so unfair for someone to have to experience that sort of loss more than one time.

I will be lifting you up in prayer, asking God to grant you the peace that only He can give. I will be asking Him to protect the sweet little baby that is growing in your tummy, to keep this baby safe, and to bring him or her to you alive and healthy when the time is perfectly right. I will also be praying for your friend, for healing and for comfort.

Thanks for sharing your precious news!!! :)

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blessedmomto8 said...

CONGRATS! Prayers headed your way!

Sarah said...

I'm a little behind on blog reading and am just now seeing this. Congratulations on your pregnancy! I'm so sorry for your friend's loss - I can't imagine how she must feel going through it twice. Praying you have a HEALTHY pregnancy and a sweet little baby in your arms before you know it!

Nancy said...

I found your blog through Kelly's Mom's.
I'm sorry you both lost your babies. I'm going to pray & follow your blog now! You have a beautiful family!

Heather said...

Ashley! Ashley!!! I am just now reading this!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! SO happy about your pregnancy!!! I will be praying, girl. You know I will be! SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!! May God rain His blessings down on you and your family!

"We can cry with hope, we can grieve with hope, because we believe with hope.."