October 15th..Ryan Elizabeth

It's already upon us...I knew when this day came it would be the month before Ryan's death. 11 months.

I wish I had her in my arms right now, but I don't.

Almost a year ago....
I got a Facebook message yesterday from a friend who asked me about why and how I can talk about something so painful?? My answer is easy. She lived, even if for a moment. How could I not talk about her? Its not something I wish to brush under the rug. She's my daughter.

I will never forget. I'm thankful there is a day where all the moms can come together and celebrate their babies who left too soon. Tomorrow I will be thinking about and praying for all the other affected families, especially the ones I've been so touched by. If you think about it tomorrow, at 7 pm, light a candle for all the sweet babies in heaven. I know I will. I miss my baby.

And if you know someone who has been affected by miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant loss, tell them tomorrow you are thinking about them. They will appreciate it more than you will know!!


Mrs. Monty said...

((Hugs)) I'm so glad I've gotten to meet you, it's nice to know youre not all alone in something like this! Well I'll be thinking about you guys and I will definitely be lighting a candle for lil Ms. Ryan as well!

Summer said...

Ashley Jo,
I've been thinking alot about you today and hopped over to tell you I will be saying and extra prayer for you and your family that GOD wraps his arms around you extra tight! It just isn't fair that they make caskets that small or that anyone has to bear the heartache and heartbreak of a loss of a child. It doesn't matter if you loose a child in your belly at 7 weeks or after birth that is your child and that is a terrible loss and something that is so undescribable unless you have been through it. I'm sorry you got that FB message...some people say things they shouldn't and it wasn't very nice. I pray for that person that they find some kindness in their heart to apologize. Little Ryan Elizabeth is a beautiful angel looking down upon you. I will for sure be lighting a candle for Ryan, for Reese, for the two miscarriages I had for the losses my friends Summer B and Kristen had and for all other women who have suffered the loss of a child. Love you Ashley Jo sorry you have to endure this hard first...my heart aches and breaks for you
love Sums I mean Eve :)

The Mama said...

I am thinking about you tomorrow. I will be lighting a candle at 7pm tomorrow night and saying prayers for all of you sweet sweet momma's out there. I know the day that you hold your sweet babies in heaven will be a day full of rejoicing! In the meantime, I am praying for you all my friend!

blessedmomto8 said...

I will join you in remembering your sweet Ryan tomorrow...HUGS!!

Nancy said...

Thinking of & praying for your family!!!

Kim said...

I know in my own way how hard every day of this life is. Thinking of you and your sweet Ryan♥

Elainna said...

Thinking of you and sweet Ryan!

"We can cry with hope, we can grieve with hope, because we believe with hope.."